I am going to write this post before I lose my nerve.
I have been struggling for some time emotionally speaking in addition to dealing with physical pain. The last 2 weeks being off work has allowed me time to admit that things are not as they should be. I am not making it folks. I am floundering, feeling overwhelmed, frustrated, angry (irrationally so at times) and lethargic, and the things I normally should be able to take in stride are tripping me up more than my lame foot.
It's no secret that I have dealt with depression in the past. I have blogged about my depression and also about my decision to go off the antidepressants. I am not sorry that I made that decision and for almost 2 years I have felt successful in navigating life without the aid of that little happy pill. But, the time has come, is here, to face reality. I was slowly slipping back into the black hole... have slipped.... and so back I went to the doctor today and renewed my prescription for my antidepressants.
I am also off work for a couple more weeks to allow a little more time for healing in my foot and I have to admit to an immense feeling of relief over this. Yes, it will create some new financial stress as we go without my paycheck but we'll survive this. God is in control and He will make a way.
I was wearing this necklace at the doctors office today and I added "I can do all things through Christ... and Wellbutrin!" and we had a good chuckle. I am glad I can joke about it and I am glad that I can accept my limitations with some grace.