Tuesday, June 18, 2013

The "D" Word

I am going to write this post before I lose my nerve.

I have been struggling for some time emotionally speaking in addition to dealing with physical pain. The last 2 weeks being off work has allowed me time to admit that things are not as they should be. I am not making it folks. I am floundering, feeling overwhelmed, frustrated, angry (irrationally so at times) and lethargic, and the things I normally should be able to take in stride are tripping me up more than my lame foot.

It's no secret that I have dealt with depression in the past. I have blogged about my depression and also about my decision to go off the antidepressants. I am not sorry that I made that decision and for almost 2 years I have felt successful in navigating life without the aid of that little happy pill. But, the time has come, is here, to face reality. I was slowly slipping back into the black hole...  have slipped.... and so back I went to the doctor today and renewed my prescription for my antidepressants.

I am also off work for a couple more weeks to allow a little more time for healing in my foot and I have to admit to an immense feeling of relief over this. Yes, it will create some new financial stress as we go without my paycheck but we'll survive this. God is in control and He will make a way.

I was wearing this necklace at the doctors office today and I added "I can do all things through Christ... and Wellbutrin!" and we had a good chuckle. I am glad I can joke about it and I am glad that I can accept my limitations with some grace.


  1. I hear you. Been there. Done that. I believe God created the amazingly smart people who created medicines to help us.

  2. Robyn,
    I have been there also several times in my life. It can seem like life is a roller coaster. I think as a woman we go through seasons in our life with hormonal changes that causes our body to do this to us. You hang in there! You have the support of your family.

  3. Reaching out for that extra bit of help when needed a sign of strength and courage. I hear of so many people who deny deny deny and live lives in horrible emotional pain so I appreciate your openness about this.
    You did good my friend.
    Feel better!

  4. Oh my.....I've been to that big "D" so often in my life. I can remember as a child having anxiety, then as I became older, the depression came. I too, have been trying to reduce my meds for this (because I don't want to be dependant, even though in reality, I am). I want you to know that even though I don't know you personally, I can still pray for you. I will be lifting you up :)


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