I have been back on my anti-depression med's for one week. They started me out at half dose and after one week, we ramp it up to the full dose. So today is the first day of the regular, full dose of the prescription. It's too soon to tell if it's making a difference really. I will say this though; the admitting I needed to go back on them, the sharing of it with trusted family and friends, has been so very positive and affirming, that is has made a significant (good) difference in how I feel regardless of the medication.
I was also able to sit in my chair and drink my morning coffee and am even sitting right now as I write this. This means NO PAIN!! Yes, for almost a week I have been unable to really sit without back spasms sending me to my knees in pain. I have spent more of the last several days laying on my back alternating between heat and ice, ibuprofen and tylenol and even a couple of muscle relaxers thrown in for good measure. My foot is better but still not 100%. I went for a walk yesterday and made one lap around the high school track and it was so good for my back. My foot was another story but I believe we'll get there.
I am supposed to return to work next week. Today I am planning to approach my boss about whether or not I could work even more part time than I was. As in not 6 mornings a week. I don't hold out a lot of hope for this happening but I believe I should ask. God can surprise me!
My back up plan if this fails is to try. This is part of the Trust, Try Talk thing that God told me. I will try returning to work and see how my body and mind and spirit hold up. And in trying, I will do my best and leave the rest up to Him.