I PASSED MY EXAM!!!!!
I have to say, yesterday started out really stressful. I was anxious about the drive to the testing center, since I had never been there before. Driving AND map reading at the same time are about as safe as texting while driving. I always read the map for the driver which is usually my husband! Still, I found the place in record time and sat in the parking lot for about 30 minutes reading a book-- NOT the postal workers exam book-- just a good book, to calm myself. Then at the appointed time I went in, took my test and drove home. No WORRIES!! The facilitator at the testing site said I'd be notified by email as to how I did and would probably even hear by the end of the day. Sure enough, when I checked my email later that afternoon, there was a confirmation from the USPS that I ACED MY TEST. SWEEEEEEETTTT!!!!!
To celebrate last night, I sat on my back deck, in my favorite sling back deck chair, with a plate of cheese and grapes and fresh picked strawberries from my little strawberry patch, and a nice glass of wine; Chateau St. Michelle, Harvest Sweet Riesling. Yah, been saving that baby for just such an occasion!! Hubby was at a men's gathering from church so had to celebrate all over again once he finally got home. ;)
I was so jazzed about passing, because up until that moment, I think I'd been pretty nonchalant about the whole job opportunity. If I get it, I get it, if I don't I don't sort of thing. And I drove home from the test thinking 'there's no way I passed that thing-- I totally failed on the memorization part' but HA HA that was not the case. Even if I don't get the position I applied for, it's a feather in my cap, personally speaking, for one more thing I went after and succeeded in!
I still remember the fear and trembling with which I approached getting my CDL so I could drive school bus. And the exuberant jubilation I felt after I passed that test! I count these things as milestones in my life. achievements earned that say "I CAN". I guess there is still a part of me--- a small, wee, tiny part-- but a part no less-- that whispers on occasion "you are a screw up. you suck. no one wants you"
Now, I know that's just the enemy talking and the seeds he planted a long time ago went deep. They were cultivated through abusive experiences and festered for a long long time. Thank God, thank God, for setting me free from that-- from eradicating those ugly seeds from my life and bringing healing!! Still, every once in awhile, like a phantom pain, those scars from the wound act up. shame on me for letting that happen.
But last night was all about celebrating!! And thanking God for this new experience. For giving me the strength and confidence I needed to go after it and for helping me succeed! I have no qualms about the position I applied for because I know God's got this covered.
Today I take my mom for a doctor appointment, (the foot doctor) so that means afterwards, we will get pedicures. whoot whoot! Lunch will be on the agenda plus a sweet friend with a bounty of raspberries has invited us to come and harvest a few bushes. And if we are not too exhausted after all that, hubby said "Come out to the lake and see where I'm working". It's another gorgeous day in Whatcom County and a drive along Lake Whatcom would be splendid. Not to mention the view at the lake and the houses being built out there.
A full day ahead!! Be blessed and be a blessing.