Wait. Isn't that the little pill I have been taking faithfully for the last 5 years?
I point directly to the stress in my life at that time. Job strain, family circumstances, relational issues and one too many helpings of all of those things being served at the same time. And it wasn't the first time I had to take medication to bring me back to an even keel. But this was probably the darkest, deepest level I had ever navigated. It took a long time and a lot of trial and error with prescriptions to find the right combination to bring me back to a place of balance.
Oh. And prayer. That was the kicker for me.
and now after 5 plus years of my morning happy-pill, I am really ready to be done.
I have eliminated many of the stress factors from my life. I no longer own my own business -- and in fact spent a good year working on recovering my health. (Ironic isn't it that I owned a health club and I had to get rid of that to regain my own health. that says a lot about what I was -- and wasn't--wired for!)
The family/relational issues have been smoothed out and my spiritual connection with God is stronger. I learned along the way to take my vitamin D (I think probably everyone in the PNW is V-D3 deprived!) exercise, eat right, practice a balanced lifestyle ..... and stay in The Word and on His Path.
I still have my low-energy days, days of feeling anti-social but I chalk that up to my introverted personality needing recharge time, more than to a mood disorder. In praying about this I think I am being shown that the right time for weaning off the med has arrived.