have you ever noticed that the word apathy contains part of the word pathetic?
blame it on the rain
or the seasonal allergies/cold
that has settled into my ears for the last week and a half,
blame it on the economic crisis in our own home,
blame it on disappointments,
blame it on ALL of the ABOVE.
but I have been dealing with a sh*t load of apathy in my life.
and it's making me feel pathetic.
i don't want to
i am tired,
easily exhausted by
just the sight of an unmade bed,
a pile of laundry
or a sink full of dishes.
I don't want to
return phone calls,
or go anywhere.
what i do want to do is
stuff my face with
and drink lots of coffee.
I want to take naps,
read a book
or watch the rain beat against the deck.
honestly, this almost feels like drifting back into a depressive state and
I AM NOT GOING TO GO THERE.
so maybe this will run it's course.
we have plans for this weekend, to attend a marriage conference at church... starting tonight and running thru Sat. i am looking forward to that.
meanwhile... that coconut macaroon looks mighty tasty.