The big word
is always TRUST.
We all know
one of life's Big Questions is "where is God when bad things happen", or
some variation of that. One of the things that has been pressing close to my
heart this past week is from Romans 8.
Can
anything ever separate us from Christ’s love? Does it mean he no longer loves
us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute,
or in danger, or threatened with death? (Romans 8. 35 NLT)
What I hear
in this passage is that regardless of my circumstances, I am still God's
beloved child (I John 3.2) and I will never be snatched out of
His hand. (John 10.28) Unless I willingly choose to step out
of His protection in pursuit of my own selfish pleasures of this world, unless I am turning
my back on God's will for my life, I am and will be, forever firmly planted in His care.
It's been
difficult to understand this long stretch of financial challenges Bruce and I
have been traveling. If Life is a Road then there have been times when it feels
like ours looks like this:
The hills and
the valleys both bring challenges, the hairpin curves feel threatening, fog and
rain make it difficult to navigate. There's been flat tires, engine failures
and empty gas tanks. We've had to get out and push the car up the hill some
days. (I'm speaking metaphorically, you understand) And it's been difficult to
comprehend because it's not like we drive a clunker. In other words.... we are
persistent in trying to follow what we believe is God's will.
What it comes
down to in this life is this: Trust. It's so crucial isn't it? I have to trust
other people in order to build real relationships with them. I have to trust
that things we set out to do will yield positive results. And I have to trust
that God's Word is true. Trusting that God has the best plan for my life.
Trusting that whatever life brings, nothing can snatch me out of His hand.
This week we
got the news about the job Bruce applied for. The answer was a disappointing
no. I thought I would be crushed by this, based on how badly I was rooting for
it. The funny thing is, I did feel sad and disappointed and yet ...not without
hope. While my first thought was "noooooooo!!!", my second thought
was "God has something else in mind."
There have
been times I have wondered if we were somehow being punished for something we
did--which I could accept being in dire straights if we were operating under
illegal or immoral principles. I'd get it if we were lazy people who
didn't want to work. But the God I know doesn't operate that way for people who
follow Him. I don't follow the 'name it and claim it' theology but I do believe
God wants to bless us. I am learning however that sometimes His blessings come in very
different packages.
I have to
trust that what we are living is all part of God's plan for our lives. That
even when I can't see what the purpose of the moment is, there is a higher purpose.
Whether it is to teach us or someone else a lesson, to develop something in our
character that still needs refining, or to build up something in us that no one
can tear down, I need to trust God.
I must choose to trust God. Because any other option will break me.
And I am
convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor
life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries
about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s
love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in
all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is
revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8. 38-39 NLT)
I hear you, sister. This has been a tough year for our family, too--health wise and job wise. Like you, we keep trusting. I don't know any other way. It rains on the just and the unjust.
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